WOW XMAS

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RON I MISS YOU

Well,it has been almost 3 months since lol vit von ended ,and I guess,I just spent so much time in denial.I just thought,he will come back,he has to ,what will I do to fill this void that is in my heart?You,know since ron left,I was sad so sad,and I just wanted him back on air.He was just that type of person,who everyone loved ,and no one hated.He was funny,kind,sweet.and at times downright LOONEY,Isay that in a good way.he had one show ,the nutsack show.it was so hysterical.
But as quick as he came into my laughless ,pittiful life,he was taken away from me.
How could I do without him?He was there for me,he was there to help me trough the rough spots of my life,and believe me,I had many.Sure ,there was ryan and jason,but Ron,he was the wise one,hell,he saved my life.
I only wish that Ron trully knows how much he meant to me,and how,his freindship will always be dear to him.I love him as a freind,and always will.
But,I am lucky,because ,some people never get to meet people as wonderful as ron,ever in their
life,and I guess,I was blessed to hav e him come into my life.Thanks Ron.you were and are my
angel.
Freinds are the best presants given to us,freindship is precious and beautiful and warm and fuzzy and just so darn great.I miss you Ron.I love you Ron,I will forever be thankful
for the time we shared.
peace
sue

this is so nice sweetttt

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_sFcisgUvGo

merry xmas yall

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EtGF2m102Wg



this is for all my friends out there.This one is dedicated to RYAN

PEACE OUT

RYAN

I really dont where to begin or really how to say it.And if GOD for bid ,he read this..ahhh.
But,its nothing bad ,only good and sentimental.He is just a wonderful person ,a true friend,
and I trully love him ,as a friend,That is what he hates ,cause he tells me ,I dont love you,And,it
doesnt matter if he does or doesnt.He is from canada,and that is cool .but I often wish I
can just hug him ,and share a good bottle of wine ,and just laugh and talk for hours.Is that so
wrong?
There is something about him that I find so intriging,.What, I dont quite know,He is young,
amitious,fun,free spirited and just a great guy.Maybe ,he is what I wish I could be.His laugh
makes me just giggle inside,and when he sings,it just ,feels so good.I love his blue eyes and his smile ,just sweet and gentle and kind.He just is a caring young guy,And i just miss him.
I just love his music and he has introduced me to some different styles of music.And it
is so cool.At times ,he tells me things which I think are so hurtful ,but still very true.And,
I now realize by him being honest ,he trully is a good friend.
Sometimes I dont exactly know how to take him.He is quiet and shy,and he is so much like kevin.And yet,ryan,makes me feel young .And that feels so great.
I am glad he came into my life,Sometimes I guess I get obseesed with him and sending him emails,It is part of this damn ptsd and depression.And I love him ,but not like the love I have for kevin,
But,its such a unique freindship. He is great and ,even though he is young, he is often there to
give me hope and to send wonderful songs for me to listen too.OMG I hope he doesnt ever see this.I really dont want him to freak out. I am ,I guessed kinda confused with my feelings with him.Hmmmm,
Life is just so confusing ,especially after Katrina.My mind,at times thinks these wierd things.
paronoid,sometimes I think Ryan hates me ,and then i freak out,No,I cant have him be mad at him then,here comes the emails and then more paronoid thoughts and more emails,Then,
does he hate me .Such a vicious cycle.
I just think ryan is the best.Well,when I was a teen,most of my pals were guys.Wow.
Anyway,I am glad I met Ryan/

Remember the love you take is equal to the love you make
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him to freak ou

great song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cNYQwZDcf1E