2009

Here it goes another year ends and a new year begins.And ,am I a little wiser for it?
I certainly hope so.Even,though katrina happened almost 4 years ago.it still haunts me
and I still shudder every time it rains ,floods and the wind blows hard.I get sick to my
stomach when i smell wrenching garbage or even walk in dirty smelling bathroom stalls.
I sometimes see elder people and I think back to the elder patients that were stranded
in these horrible conditions in the hospitals during and after katrina.I remember their
fearful,frightened cries of help.And,I remember .me not emotionally able to help them
I was there ,in the stairwell huddled ,shaking ,not able to move .frozen at the steps.
there.during the raging ,powerful f orce of hurricane katrina .I was scared ,frightened,begging
God to save us.But,I needed to be strong,I was always strong,Not today ,not now,What
about the patients ,who was there for them.I was weak,I was ashamed that I could not
be there for them.I felt like a coward,

Hurricane katrina was....a power so strong it destroyed peoples homes,peoples communities
It RIPPED APART everthing in its path.But most important it destroyed lives.
famlies ,it was so damn horrible.

ok ,,,,but it is over....now ..imust move on...but I must never ever forget

nawl

report on ptsd

http://www.psychiatricannalsonline.com/showPdf.asp?rID=26329



excellant report on survivors of katrina with ptsd

2009

WOW,ANOTHER YEAR!!! And I made it thru without too many incidents,bad incidents.
Yes,there were still said some bumps,some ,heartaches,some ,compulsive,obseesive
episodes,some depressive episodes .some losses.a loss of one of my oldest
bestdearest friend ,ruth.And ,the pain often so unbearable.The loss of the lol ron show.That too was very sad.BUT,I worked my way thru it.I still keep in touch
with ron,He is such a wonderful wonderful person.He is the wise one.He understands
me and he cares ,truly cares.And,that feels so good.
And ,with the new year i am trying to make an active effort to be more understanding,less compulsive,more respectful of peoples feelings.I know sometimes
I get ,I go off the deep end ,and i just kinda freak out.I will try
to chill out more.I know that my canadian friends would really appreciate that.
i do get off the deep end a lot with ryan.Poor guy ,he gets the worst from me,when
I upset,aqnd he tries to be cool about it.Poor guy ,poor guy.
anyway, I WILL TRY to get better.
so ,guys,hopefully you will see a new me:;)



peace
nawl

WOW XMAS

wow Iam so not knowing where has all the time gone too?
This is by far my besetest xmas ever,I think,for the first time,I am living for today,not for the past,or the future,but living for today.I feel ,my head is way above water and I am standing
tall,It could not have been done alone,not with the help of my freinds.They ,are ,were there for me. They stayed around,their arms wide open,an available shoulder to cry on.They were silent when i needed just someone to hold me and they were there to listen and ,yes they were there
when I was a total emotional wreck.They believed in me ,even if I didnot.
They were and are so much a part of my life,and will always continue to be my freinds.
And ,Xmas, is a time for freinds and freindships.For true freindships can never be broken
.true freinds are loveand that is the only presant i ask is freindship.
peace

WOW XMAS

WOW XMAS

W

RON I MISS YOU

Well,it has been almost 3 months since lol vit von ended ,and I guess,I just spent so much time in denial.I just thought,he will come back,he has to ,what will I do to fill this void that is in my heart?You,know since ron left,I was sad so sad,and I just wanted him back on air.He was just that type of person,who everyone loved ,and no one hated.He was funny,kind,sweet.and at times downright LOONEY,Isay that in a good way.he had one show ,the nutsack show.it was so hysterical.
But as quick as he came into my laughless ,pittiful life,he was taken away from me.
How could I do without him?He was there for me,he was there to help me trough the rough spots of my life,and believe me,I had many.Sure ,there was ryan and jason,but Ron,he was the wise one,hell,he saved my life.
I only wish that Ron trully knows how much he meant to me,and how,his freindship will always be dear to him.I love him as a freind,and always will.
But,I am lucky,because ,some people never get to meet people as wonderful as ron,ever in their
life,and I guess,I was blessed to hav e him come into my life.Thanks Ron.you were and are my
angel.
Freinds are the best presants given to us,freindship is precious and beautiful and warm and fuzzy and just so darn great.I miss you Ron.I love you Ron,I will forever be thankful
for the time we shared.
peace
sue