2009

Here it goes another year ends and a new year begins.And ,am I a little wiser for it?
I certainly hope so.Even,though katrina happened almost 4 years ago.it still haunts me
and I still shudder every time it rains ,floods and the wind blows hard.I get sick to my
stomach when i smell wrenching garbage or even walk in dirty smelling bathroom stalls.
I sometimes see elder people and I think back to the elder patients that were stranded
in these horrible conditions in the hospitals during and after katrina.I remember their
fearful,frightened cries of help.And,I remember .me not emotionally able to help them
I was there ,in the stairwell huddled ,shaking ,not able to move .frozen at the steps.
there.during the raging ,powerful f orce of hurricane katrina .I was scared ,frightened,begging
God to save us.But,I needed to be strong,I was always strong,Not today ,not now,What
about the patients ,who was there for them.I was weak,I was ashamed that I could not
be there for them.I felt like a coward,

Hurricane katrina was....a power so strong it destroyed peoples homes,peoples communities
It RIPPED APART everthing in its path.But most important it destroyed lives.
famlies ,it was so damn horrible.

ok ,,,,but it is over....now ..imust move on...but I must never ever forget

nawl

report on ptsd

http://www.psychiatricannalsonline.com/showPdf.asp?rID=26329



excellant report on survivors of katrina with ptsd

2009

WOW,ANOTHER YEAR!!! And I made it thru without too many incidents,bad incidents.
Yes,there were still said some bumps,some ,heartaches,some ,compulsive,obseesive
episodes,some depressive episodes .some losses.a loss of one of my oldest
bestdearest friend ,ruth.And ,the pain often so unbearable.The loss of the lol ron show.That too was very sad.BUT,I worked my way thru it.I still keep in touch
with ron,He is such a wonderful wonderful person.He is the wise one.He understands
me and he cares ,truly cares.And,that feels so good.
And ,with the new year i am trying to make an active effort to be more understanding,less compulsive,more respectful of peoples feelings.I know sometimes
I get ,I go off the deep end ,and i just kinda freak out.I will try
to chill out more.I know that my canadian friends would really appreciate that.
i do get off the deep end a lot with ryan.Poor guy ,he gets the worst from me,when
I upset,aqnd he tries to be cool about it.Poor guy ,poor guy.
anyway, I WILL TRY to get better.
so ,guys,hopefully you will see a new me:;)



peace
nawl