LAST WEEK WAS WRETCHED ..CRIED ME A RIVER OF TEARS..SAD ...ALONE.....I WAS TAKEN BACK ..IN TIME ..WHEN...I WAS DEPRESSED..3 YEARS AGO....I JUST WANTED TO BE ALONE..LOCKED ....IN MY ROOM..I JUST WANTED TO DIE...
DEPRESSION JUST KICKS YOU IN THE ASS....AND I GET SO ..UPSET,,,I JUST WANT SOMEONE ...TO LISTEN..TO CARE...I JUST WANT TO BE HELD...SO TIGHT...TO TAKE AWAY MY PAIN..THIS PAIN IS SO SO SO UNBEARABLE...BUT ... PEOPLE JUST DONT UNDERSTAND...SOME TRY TO UNDERSTAND SOME SOME JUST DONT UNDERSTAND AND SOME JUST DONT CARE.
MY FRIENDS TRY..BUT THEY CANT HANDLE IT..THEY..ARE SADDENED ..TO HEAR THERE FRIENDS ..SO SOO HURT ANYONE.. DOWN
ITS ,YOU JUST WANT TO BE ALONE BECAUSE ..THAT IS THE SAFE PLACE...YOU .,,STAY
IN YOUR ROOM...JUST...STAY... YOU JUST WANT TO DIE ..JUST DIE..IN YOUR MIND YOU DONT WANT TO HURT ANYONE...THIS WAY,,,,YOU DIE..,IN DEATH,,,YOU ARE FREE
....THE PAIN IS GONE ,GONE..BUT REALLY...YOU, YOU WANT YOUR FRIENDS TO SAY PLEASE ,PLEASE DONT SAY THAT,,,,YOU WANT TO KNOW THEY CARE..JUST CARE
IT HURTS SO BAD,,,,YOU LOOSE FAITH IN EVERYONE..YOU POUR YOUR SOUL OUT TO YOUR FRIENDS..AND ..THEY,,JUST TO DONT GET YOU...THEY JUST DONT..
ALL YOU WANT IS THEM TO JUST CARE..YOU WANT TO YELL SCREAM, SHOUT...
PLEASE ,PLEASE ...HOLD MY HAND ,HUG ME ,LISTEN,,,CARE,,,
DEPRESSION IS SO .SO ....DARK AND COLD.....AND SAD...YOU ARE CONSTANTLY FIGHTING THE BATLLE THE ,STRUGLE...IT GRIPS YOU, IT TAKES YOU OVER...
,,YOU ..NO LONGER CARE...YOU JUST GIVE IN...
BUT,,YOU JUST GET SO DAMN SAD....FRIENDS THEY SAY HURTFUL THINGS..NOT INTENTIONALLY...BUT,,,YOUR DEPRESSION ..TAKES OVER YOUR MIND AND YOUR ,,,,
SOUL....AND YOU TRY SO DAMN HARD ,,TO GET IT RIGHT ,TO GET GET IT BACK,,,,,
YOU WALK ON EGGSHELLS CAUSE YOU DONT WANT TO DO ANYTHING TO GET ANY ONE MAD.
I ...MY FRIENDS,....ARE IMPORTANT TO ME....I ....NAWLINS, WE ..ARE FRIENDLY ,LOVING,CAREING PEOPLE,.....I ...LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS..I JUST ..THATS WHO I AM....AND SOME PEOPLE ,SOME FRIENDS THEY DONT GET IT...AND IT S OK ITS ALL GOOD...ITS THERE ,,,,ITS THEM....BUT,...FOR ME.... I WILL NEVER APOLOGIZE
FOR ..SAYING TELLING MY FRIENDS ..I LOVE THEM..THIS IS WHO I AM THIS IS ME...
I AM VERY SINCERE WITH IT.....I MEAN IT....SO ,PLEASE JUST RESPECT MY FEELINGS
.......AND JUST..DONT GET ANGRY BECAUSE I SPEAK THE TRUTH.
AND SO I AM ON THIS ROUGH ROAD ,A ROUGH RIDE ,BUT I WILL ON IT UNTIL I HAVE REACHED THE POINT OF MY LIFE ,WHERE I,AM HAPPY OF WHO I AM,I KNOW MY PURPOSE IN LIFE,WHEN I AM STRONG ,WHEN MY SPIRIT IS AND ARE MENDED
WHEN I REALIZE THE PURPOSE OF MY LIFE....WHEN ...I CAN...TAKE ALL THE WORLD HAS TO GIVE ME ...AND ,,I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY ,JUST WANT TO TO LIVE JUST WANT TO LIVE IN PEACE...AMD I WISH EVERYONE THE SAME
PEACE
REMEMBER THE LOVE YOU TAKE IS EQUAL TO THE LOVE YOU MAKR